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My Anxiety is Buying A Lot of Drawer Organizers
My parents divorced when I was 10, which was when my anxiety and depression first really appeared. Unable to control what was happening to my family, I controlled what I consumed. I progressed rapidly into a binge-eating disorder that stuck around until I finally found the right therapist, and even then it just began to manifest in different ways. (I also had undiagnosed ADHD, but that’s a story for a different time.)
A month ago, I moved across the country after losing my job in May to see what direction my life could take in a different state. Since arriving in Tennessee, I have been unable to stop organizing things. I rainbow sorted my books. I’ve purchased every bathroom and drawer organizer Target will deliver. I’m considering asking family for gift certificates to The Container Store for Christmas.
Last week, when I reorganized the top two shelves in a pantry, my housemate said “you’re really great at organizing,” and I responded with “it’s the only thing I can control.”
Oh.
I’m a freelance writer and social media manager struggling to make ends meet. I’ve just moved to a state where our county leadership is keeping a mask mandate in place but the Governor of our state won’t put one in place (and his “Choose to live your life and choose to wear a mask” campaign is deeply…
